God.

Is God used as a convinience? When things are going good God doesn't exist except maybe in the back of your mind. What about when things are bad? Suddenly God is back. Either to pray to, or to blame, or to escape too depending on your religious situation with him.

Why is this? If he is out there why isn't he directing me?! I want to have some comfort. Why should life be some huge test?

Why did he give us free will in which we could mess up bad enough to spend an eternity or so in HELL!!! Was he bored?

Or does he not exist? Gasp. I won't go there. Personally, I can't beleive that life and conscience came about from nothing by nothing, and then returns to nothing after my 0-110 years are up.

Anyways, I just wish I could have a few encounters with this God of mine, and most christians. It'd be a nice change.