You can always go on

If Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfied

Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks

Then I'll follow you into the dark



God has failed me.

Satan doesn't intimidate me.


My life as follows has always been according to some god be damned system. Bells rule my day. I act to please the people I am forced to be with by "fate".

Apparently all this is just a bunch of chemical and electrical reactions going on in some purple goop encased in a skull anyways.

So I've decided that I no longer believe that I can control anything, my being, what I consider is really myself, my true "I", can only observe thoughts and actions that a body does. "I" have no say in my mood, I can just tell that the body I'm attached to is feeling distressed, or joy, or indifference even.

So you might ask, what is it that controls your body then? If not you, then who or what?

My answer: Maybe God. Or maybe that purple goop in a skull called the brain does it.

But I am content to sit and watch a life go by. "My" life go by. I didn't feel like I have power over things. Yesterday I broke my foot. Now I'm forced to lay around all day and look forward to make up work in school. I have no say in this. My fate is what my doctor and teachers say it is. What am I supposed to do about it? What does it matter, I don't think I can anyways.

I am the Observer.