Funny how life turns things about

I can hate then love the next week.

I might throw myself about too much, I'm all over the scale. Happy to sad. Bored to excited. Helpless to confident. Empty to saturated.

I want to do something fufilling that will equal me out some.

But there is no such thing.

Plus, the extremes make me happy. Either I want to be extremely rebellious. Or Extremely loyal. Well thats a lie, I can lack the extreme part of that.

I want to get in a car and drive to hell at 100 miles per hour and piss on the devil.

I want to climb a ladder for a million years to find God and ask him whats up?

I want to sleep forever, but be able to sprint away as fast as my feet will take me at any time.

I want to screw the systems of life that I have no control over in the butt and leave it forever.

I want to take advantage of these systems and get rich and powerful.

I want people to love me.

It's satisfying to hate someone.

How do you keep your head when everything contradicts like this?

You don't.