New Years Reflection

When one looks back on a whole year, can they clearly see all the somewhat major events of the year? Can they relate emotions and correct chronological order when they think back?

I can't seem to trap memories vividly enough, or in any kind of order. Talk about frustrating. Isn't that one of the greatest human traits? Self awareness and the ability to look in on the past and learn from it.

Why then, why do I not see anything aside from a mental block, a slight pressure behind my ears, when I try to think of what I did in august, or april, or what october was like.

I know you've heard times flys before, but good Jesus thats an understatement. Time F@#king warps and twists faster than atomic explosions evaporate crap. I feel the change and I know its there, and it comes and goes in different variations. In a week, I feel like mores happened than 3 months at other times. It's odd how it works. For all this clarity in what I'm trying to explain though, I cannot for the life of me pinpoint thoughts of long ago when these changes happened to relate in any accurate way what they were in an interesting fashion. -Ranting Run On

So this new years, I'll try to put down new interesting things I can actually remember--

First time I played high school fall soccer

Oh my god Im done I can't think of anything except like a month ago and everything new from there on is private.

Is this mental block a handicap? Is it normal? Why can't I see my past?!