It almost hurts to listen to, it kinda releases adrenaline, (As in a lot), and you can't understand the words aside from a few. Thats probably for the better.
Maybe what I like about it the most is that its so far off the beaten path. I can't think of many people who would like this stuff, and yet here I am, loving it.
Which gets me to my deeper point. Humans can be successfully compared to sheep. I know I'm not the first to say this, its in books and philosophies and such, but I'm discovering in mine and others actions just how true it is.
I enjoy letting someone else take responsibility for many things. I let the government protect me other other masses of people. I let my mom feed me. My dad makes the money to buy things. Basically I can't take care of myself well or at all, so I follow others and more than happily let them smooth things out. This works for the whole staying alive aspect of life, but its not very satisfying and after a while I feel like a robot, zero creativity. Zero purpose.
I want to be a leader but I don't want to put up the risk and time it takes to become one. It's so so hard to escape comfort.
But I am trying, and will struggle with my lazy self till I finally pass into the next existence, or lack thereof.
This struggle exists because right now I am ambitious, I can think clearly through these words I write, they help me to focus on facts and theories that normally just muddle around in my brain. The problem is is that once I stop writing, my train of thought leaves pretty dang fast. It just goes away. Then Im stuck with droning through the world like another robot again.
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